04-09-2025 2:00 AM

I have this weird desire that a girl, who I like, would lovingly and willing sit on my face. I care about this so deeply. I wonder why? It is not the act of it that makes me want it. It is the circumstances that make the act possible which I so deeply want. I could trick a girl into liking me and then maybe even make the circumstances possible in some way, but that would be fraud.

What I really desire is that the circumstances naturally exist. But I cannot imagine how or why would such circumstances exist. And they will never exist until I myself believe that they can exist. How am I even going to propose a girl for the said act if I myself don’t believe in it.

I guess it is that belief I desire more than anything else.

Let’s see.